A few weeks ago, I went with some of my friends to Big Bend National Park. I honestly had the best time. Not only was it some of the most breathtaking creation I have ever seen, but it was some of the most refreshing time I had for quite some time. The following is a journal entry from after our first hike.
So we hiked to “The Window” today, God. And I cried. A lot. I wasn’t expecting to cry…but I did and there was no stopping. You came so fast and so strong. I was overwhelmed by the beauty of everything. I really had/have no words to describe what I saw or how it looked. I was speechless. And I kept hearing you say “Listen. Listen.” So I did my best to listen…and you quieted my heart instead.
I guess I had to listen to You first before you could quiet my heart.
And I cried some more.
Looking out over the canyon area, I couldn’t see everything clearly, but what I could see was beautiful. And I guess that’s what looking through a window is like-seeing the big picture, but not the details.
And as I thought about it more and listened to what You were whispering, I think that’s what You wanted me to begin to understand:
I’m looking through a window right now. Things seem far away and a bit blurry. I don’t understand how to get there, or exactly what part of the picture You’re taking me to…but overall, it’s beautiful. And You know the details.
And another thing, too, God?
I was sitting on a rock looking through the window. I had sure footing and a safe place to rest while I looked.
And that’s what You are, God: the Rock I get to sit on. Rest on. Lean on…while I look through the window and wait for You to take me to what’s next.
And I guess it makes sense that I was overwhelmed when I looked through the window-most of the time, you never know what you’re gonna see.
“Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.” ~1 Corinthians 13:12